As a little child we used to play games that would ultimately result in us falling down. When we were really young it was Ring around the Rosie, then it was football in the front yard with the neighbor kids, maybe even a round of Dutch pile, and then we would graduate to real sports. we would find joy in falling down and landing on the ground.

As we matured, we would learn lessons about getting back up, even in the face of adversity. For example, in tackle football if we were knocked down, the next time we were to hit our opponent even harder and knock them down. These lessons left the playing field and were soon put to the test in everyday real-life. Our parents did the best that they could to ensure that we were prepared for life.

These lessons were greatly appreciated when I encountered tough moments in my life. I am often asked how do you see the positive in a situation such as living with Parkinson's. I generally tell people I can either give up or plow through. So far, I have been plowing through.

Yesterday, I fell down. I got back up. No problem. Right?

I had to make a decision. My wife at the time was dressing up for the event that her coworker was hosting. I was going to stay at home. But this was my problem. Do I tell my wife that I fell, knowing that it was a result of my Parkinson's, or do I not tell her? I have always been honest with my wife, but this time was different.

After she had returned home later in the evening I informed her of my fall. Immediately she asked me why I didn't tell her then? I told her that I wanted to tell her but I knew that if I did she would not go to the event. She agreed that that would have probably occurred.

I told her that I did not want her to be changing her life because of me. I knew that if I told her that she was going to want to stay at home and not go, and what I wanted for her was to have a good night.

This situation showed that a very fine line exists in my life with Parkinson's. I know there will be days when I will fall, and that there will be days where I will not be able to do the things that I used to do, but there is one thing that I know will always be there. My wife.

She wants to be there for me. I cannot deny her that. No matter how hard it gets living with Parkinson's I have to share all those moments with my wife and that's the hardest part. I don't want her to see me suffer. I don't want her to see me fall down. 

"There is no fear in love. Instead, perfect love drives fear away."
1 John 4:18 NIRV