Lately, every day has been filled with some type of bustling activity. It's Christmas time people say.You're supposed to be running around shopping, visiting friends and family. Last night it was a school board training class I attended, tonight it is a review of a movie, and this Sunday starts another splurge of activities filling up next week's schedule.

Eventually I made it home yesterday. As I sat down in my cozy comfortable sofa, I finally took a deep breath. I noticed for the first time a tremor consuming my left arm, much more sever than my right. I also realized that as much as I want to make my life normal, it was and always will be different from what I used to know.

I decided a few months ago that I was going to live life. Since that decision I have become involved in the National Parkinson's Foundation Minnesota Chapter's fundraising walk planning committee. I accepted a position on the MTCS School Board. My wife and I even found time to get away on a short four day, non-stop vacation.

Last night, I commented to my bride how blessed I felt to hear about her day, that she shared the comings and goings of her job. It was shortly after that that my clam was so rudely interrupted by the shaking of my upper limbs. This was another reminder of what normal is now looking like. It was also a revelation of the journey ahead.

I don't know if it was the idea that I'd never go back to days without tremors or that the tremors will be more severe in the days ahead. The thought at that moment left me feeling like I was alone, even though my wife was sitting right next to me. I don't ever want to see her cry because I'm not feeling well or that the medications are not working as well as they should, but I know that will happen. I try not to show her that I am struggling.

I also know this. We don't walk this walk alone. There is someone there that carries us in those times when we feel alone. Someone who hurts with us and shares in our joys. He is always there for us. THAT is the normal I desire not only for me, but for you, too.

Nevertheless I am continually with you; You have taken hold of my right hand.
Psalm 73:23